birds.

birds are marvelous creatures.

i love to bird watch in the city...it's one of my favorite things to do. they are so intricate with their movements and make flying look so easy...if it were only that simple to just take off..

so the show i've been working on is coming to an end tomorrow night. it's a bittersweet ending...i'm excited to have a little more time on the weekends to dance, but at the same time, this is the first show i've worked on...so it's kind of close to my heart. i'm sad to see it end. :(

many more to come though...

"The time has come," the Walrus said,
"To talk of many things:
Of shoes--and ships--and sealing-wax--
Of cabbages--and kings--
And why the sea is boiling hot--
And whether pigs have wings."

going to this garage sale tomorrow morning at this retired center for old rich people...sooo excited! maybe i will find a new purse that i have been needing since i moved here!

i am a new fan of studded things...except those choker necklaces. those are a bit much.

okay...so here is a few names of the people i work with (i find them all to be quite interesting):

Karim
Habib
Ciprian
Eghord
Debashis
Mohammed
Abou

haha...they are all from different parts of the world. very fascinating people.

16 days till i am home in my own bed.

can't wait.

wet socks.

stupid weather. so full of deceit. it was sunny and warmish earlier, then turned to 35 degrees with rain and wind. and i definitely wore the wrong shoes...which resulted in wet socks and cold feet.

awfulllll.

so my dinner consisted of black pitted olives (that were soaked in olive oil, red peppers, and other amazingness) and red pepper hummus on watercrackers. seriously...don't judge. you must try it...heaven on a cracker.

i have decided i am in love with swing dancing. there is no other feeling like getting this crazy rush as you get thrown across the dance floor.

okay...there might be a couple things comparable. like riding horseback at sunset on acres and acres of cleared land and eating popeyes chicken. :)

haha but seriously...definitely my favorite part of the week when i get to dance.

working a double shift tomorrow...should not be awake right now.

this song won't get out of my head...such simple lyrics, but so powerful.
"I need you more"- Bethel Live

also...i've been loving me some ella fitzgerald these days. she is a delight.

shirley temple.

i love shirley temples...not too much grenadine, and no cherry please. :)

so. in case you didn't know...i live waaaay out in the suburbs and i am actively looking for a place in the city. like pronto. i like where i live...it just isn't practical. the money i'm spending on transportation getting in and out of the city is equivalent to what i'd be spending in rent in the city. and i have no car...so therefore, it makes no sense to live in a place i can't get around in.

plus...i'm sick of feeling like a burden asking people for rides constantly. it's rather irritating.

i still can't believe my mother is getting married...whatever makes her happy i suppose. i'm beyond ready to come home and visit though...feels like centuries since i have been home!

so i had my first day at ruth's chris today...and as i was walking to work, the sole of my shoe just came right off.

i wanted to curse and laugh all at the same time...and laughed instead haha. plus i know this cute little shoe tailor old man in the city who could fix it real quick because he has fixed my purse for me. the strap broke while i was just walking around in the city...it was rather strange.

i seem to attract lots of strange occurrences though.

work was alright. it was crazy hectic...like i'm talking madness. and it's a monday!! i can only imagine what weekends are like...

come together right now.

yay beatles :)

God spoke to me tonight through a train conductor (a cute little 70ish year old man named John...he's precious :)

he didn't charge me for the train ride home and he even gave me a ride home from the train station.

it was quite amazing.

i made it to church today by the skin of my teeth....after missing my commuter rail train by a milisecond as i watched it fly by and then i missed my subway...

ahh the joys of public transportation.

my left hand is asleep...just fyi: i'm having to type most of this with my right hand because it is hard to function my left hand while it's sleeping. i wonder what the technical term is for a body part to "fall asleep" and what your body part is actually doing instead of sleeping, because we all know my left hand isn't sleeping.

we had a bon jovi/beatles/weezer improv concert after the church service was over today. it was pretty much...amazing.

i am so hungry...but i don't have enough energy to go downstairs and rummage through the kitchen. therefore...the thought of breakfast in the morning must fill me for now.

living on a prayer.

red hatters.

google has a space theme today. just thought you should know.

i need some prayers if you don't mind...lots happening in my life these days.

little old ladies are so cute. :) the red hatters came to the show last night. they were ADORABLE. i wanna be a red hatter some day...if i don't die before then haha.

i am so not looking forward to the rain the next few days...i still have yet to find my umbrella and i don't have a raincoat.

sooo impractical...

story of my life.

had another great show last night...definitely my favorite night by far. i even had some friends come a long way to see the show, it made my night :)

going to this event called "fight club" tomorrow after church...don't worry, i wont be fighting haha. it's training on how to become more of a Godly woman.

hyacinths are lovely.

embrace the change.

feels like i haven't blogged in a year...ahh the distractions of life.

woohoo!! i got a job. it's for a hostess and server's assistant position at ruth's chris steakhouse in boston. it will be great to get me on my feet while i am pursuing doing hair and makeup for a theatre production company of some sort.

oh...and my mom is engaged...

and i finally got popeyes today!! YES.

oh and i'm coming home the second week in june for her wedding. clear your calendars AR peeps :)

went to a spa day with some amazing gals and this "wicked awesome"(haha...can't get over this phrase) Bible study last night. it's refreshing to be around lovely gals who love Jesus.

God is so good. like...in every single way. it's amazing what he will do in your life if you quit being stubborn and just let go of your pride.

but he will continue to remind you how prideful you have been...

over. and over. and over again...until you really and TRULY let go.

so tonight kicks off another night of the show i've been doing the hair and makeup for...there was a reviewer who put this huge article on the paper on the front page saying how much they loved the show...and they even gave a special shout out to the hair and makeup artist. yay!

i want a dog.

luke 10:3

tarot cards.

what an eventful day...

let me first say...good bbq does not exist in the north and i was thoroughly disappointed when i ordered a bbq sandwich and out came a chicken breast with bbq sauce on it on a crappy untoasted bun.

laaaaame.

second. i have an interview tomorrow...pray for me please.

third. my sister lauren found out she's having twin boysss...yay!! they will be such studs :)

fourth...

i got a palm reading tonight. i have never gotten one before and it's one of those things i've always been curious about but never took the initiative or found the time to do it. my friend and i were just driving around though and i saw it on the side of the road....

so we went haha..

this was what i remember of the reading...she talked really fast though and it was a little overwhelming getting all of this information in such a short time, so if the thoughts are a little jumbled, just consider the source (in the words of my aunt...haha i love her):

she told me i am blessed by God...that i have a lot of good things that happen to me, but along with the good, there is always something bad that happens that puts a damper on things. she said i have a good heart, compassionate. she said i am confused...not sure where to go. she said i want to get out and travel and see the world, but financially it isn't an option to do what i want to do right now, but she said eventually i would. also said i would eventually be successful, not necessarily financially, but that i would eventually be content with what i was doing. this was also interesting...she said there are men in my life that have feelings for me, but that i don't have mutual feelings towards them. she said i have already met my soul mate, but he has yet to share his feelings with me. and according to her, i am meant to be a mother of 2, a girl and a boy...

weirdness.

that's all i can say about that.

dog attack.

so John Mayer and i have a love-hate relationship. i go through phases of liking him...putting him on the back-burner, then liking him again. currently i'm liking him. "Why Georgia"...love this song.

makes me want a road trip.

imagine going for a run in a cute little colonial town with your ipod of course on a nice sunny morning and you get distracted by this pretty bench in the sun. so you sit and rest for a minute...and "Lead Me to the Cross" by Hillsong comes on.

it was pretty much a perfect moment. highlight of my day for sure.

my devo this morning was about patience...which i need to acquire more of. point taken.

so...after i did some costuming work for this other show i've been working on, i saw this woman on the side of the road by my house laying on the sidewalk with a dog and a bunch of people around. i walked over there to see if she was okay...turns out some crazy dog attacked her and her dog.

weird...

she was totally shaken up too...wish there was something i could've done for her :/

then the police showed up and i was outta there haha...i've had enough painful memories with them. 50 hours of community service is enough for me. thank you 2 traffic tickets in one day...ugh.

this is when i am thrilled to not have a vehicle.

food for thought:

"if you aren't thinking about heaven at least once a day, what are you thinking about?"

i heard that in a sermon and i didn't really think much about it when i heard it at the time...but for some reason it stuck with me. we are supposed to be excited about heaven and spending eternity with our maker! sometimes i get so one track minded...just getting caught up in my own life, not necessarily looking at the big picture. heaven is exciting to think about though...

i can't wait. :)

solar panelled keychain.

live theatre is pretty amazing.

saw 3 different shows at hollywood and the vine theatre tonight. such compelling performances...and i could definitely relate to the last show.

someone gave me a solar panelled keychain from florida with my name on it tonight...it flashes my name. haha...it's up there with one of the most random gifts i've ever gotten. along with the apples and clothes hangers that my grandma DD got me...

grandmas are the best :)

i just saw a picture of sushi and now i'm craving it...ahhh. i love sushi.

why do people rush? i mean i understand young teenagers...they're pretty naive and don't know what they're getting into, so they just follow their hearts, not thinking with their heads so much and the long term affects. but come on...we are adults here. i understand that people want companionship, that's normal. God created us that way.

The LORD God said, "It is not good for the man to be alone. I will make a helper suitable for him." Genesis 2:18...straight from the horses mouth ladies and gents.

so yes. i get it. but WHY RUSH? why not spend a few years together becoming best friends, having endless adventures, getting to know every fault of one another, and love them despite..

the answer: who knows. love is a strange thing. God's timing is perfect though, and if he is the center of the relationship...then timing should not matter. so basically...i'm just ranting.

i slept until 1:00pm today...ridiculous.

variable change.

quickly i realize
time is of the essence
say litte, listen more
smile :)

what is up with new england people and the phrase "wicked??" it's like every single person says it that is from around here...evidently i missed that memo.

something about change blows my mind. it happens so often and so quickly. like i can hardly catch my breath...and then another curve is thrown. sometimes good...usually unexpected, but it happens nonetheless. gah...just this year, my entire life has done a 180.

every. single. aspect.

don't get me wrong...i'm not complaining. i'm actually very happy with my life currently. i'm doing what i love to do...going on random adventures, meeting fascinating people left and right, and actually digging deeper into the word. i feel like that's a big reason why God called me to come to Boston...or maybe even the only reason, to get me completely out of my comfort zone in a place where i don't know anyone or anything, and break me until the only way i could look was to him.

i am nothing without him. that's a fact.

so yes...the show went SO AWESOME last night! there was an octet at the champagne reception before the show started...they were so wonderful! i heard them backstage as i was getting the actors ready and i thought it was a cd playing, that's how amazing they were. the actors performed beautifully and i can't wait to do their hair all over again tonight...next weekend...and the next..ha!

i heard it might snow tonight. joy. sick of the gross weather...what happened to sandals and dresses? :(

ramen.

i could listen to yann tiersen's piano arrangements all day...especially on cold misty days like this.

look him up. he's amazing.

just got through modeling for a friend's website. he's launching a resale line of vintage goodies: clothes, accessories, home furnishings, etc. too bad the weather was so grody...the photographer was great though. i'd love to work with her again.

perfect day for ramen noodles cozied up under a blanket :)

tonight is opening night!! ahh...i can't believe it's already here. we are definitely celebrating afterwards.

also working on costuming for another theatre companies show coming up...so much going on.

there is a museum of dead flowers in my window haha...that's okay though. i think dead flowers are pretty.

sometimes i wish that i didn't care so much...life would maybe be a bit more simple.

maybe.

pink socks.

yes...i bought pink socks for a quarter today :) and they are on my feet.

here is a list of subway and train etiquette i have compiled that should be enforced...but it isn't:

1. shower. everyone.
2. when you see that there is not enough room for you to sit down, don't sit down.
3. staring makes people uncomfortable, so please don't.

had a blast from the past tonight...thinking about my childhood, which i haven't thought about in such a long time. it's crazy how much God has strengthened me over the years and protected me from situations that could have potentially changed the course of my life in drastic ways. it's cool how God uses the worst times in your life to mold you.

swing dancing is such a crazy awesome workout. i love it more every day.

***note to self- frozen pizzas microwaved on a paper plate tastes like a paper plate...yuuuck.

corn starch and baby powder.

so...

i have a lot on my mind these days. and usually i try to keep this blog pretty vague...but i'm breaking that rule as of now.

beware...i'm going to vent.

i want to know God in such a way that i CRAVE his presence in my life every moment of every day. i want to want to wake up earlier, just so i can spend more time with him. i want to be able to fast like the apostles did. i want him to be proud to call me his daughter.

sometimes i wonder if i would appreciate God more if i had less.

also. i'm slightly homesick. i want so desperately to hold my niece...to hug my family, to kiss my cat sophie (which i have discovered is the only cat on the planet i like), to visit my family on the farm, go on a thousand sunset horseback rides, eat my aunts cooking (the best food on the planet), watch a ton of baseball games (of course with sunflower seeds and sweet tea), cut my uncle's hair and hear the same stories over and over again :), get lost in the woods somewhere, go to the lake and get sunburned, drink endless susie q milkshakes...mmmm...oh and hang out with my friends? yeah i miss you guys too. a lot.

then i remember what a ridiculously cool opportunity i have here....and how God is working in my life

and how i know i can make it here, if it continues to be God's will that i stay here.

also. i have discovered i'm incapable of sewing a straight line today...ugh.

oh....and i found out baby powder and corn starch is the answer to making a woman's hair grey really fast. score.

edit///:

had an AMAZING rehearsal tonight. i was in the middle of putting a wig cap on one actress with bobby pins in my mouth, while kicking shoes to another actor backstage....when it hit me how much i LOVED what i was doing. i love the chaos of being backstage, people counting on me to make them look a certain way, seeing my work on stage, and loving every second of it!!

blonde is not for me.

i can't believe i'm still awake...i've been ready to crash since like noon. i feel obligated to blog though...ahh this is becoming unhealthy.

haha...so i tried on some wigs backstage tonight at rehearsal for the show. let's just say you never have to worry about me going blonde. it is not my shade.

books. books. galore.

just started "My Utmost For His Highest" and "Know Your Bible"...which i'm extremely excited about actually, i love getting new books :)

i burned my middle finger with a curling iron today. i should be banned from all hot tools. period.

my new years resolution was to learn french...i need to get on that.

James 4:7-11

woo pig sooie

it is well with my soul.

beneath.
insignificant sinner
yet...you bless me
grace.

such a hard thing to grasp...grace.

what a wonderful weekend...full of fellowship and people with amazing hearts for the Lord :)

very refreshing.

my niece was born as well...6 and a half lbs!

so many blessings...i don't even know where to start.

have you ever wondered why the abbreviation for pounds is lbs? when there is no "l" or "b" in the word pounds? haha...i don't understand.

the set for the show is built and ready to go! i can't believe opening night is only 5 days away. super excited to see it all come together...

1 John

letters.

dim
soft and broken
she whispers, he grins
helpless

i feel like such an old person when i talk about the weather...haha but it's funny how it affects you right? like your whole day can change.

and i sound old school by saying this too, but letters are probably one of my favorite things ever. they are so personal. they take time and thought and feeling. you can grasp it and read it again and remember exactly what was going on in your life when you got that letter. it's a piece of history.

don't judge me. :)

A letter to Claire:

You have yet to enter the world, but I'm sure when you do tomorrow, it will be a much better place because you are in it. By the the time you are able to read this, you will have already blossomed into a beautiful child of God. (but you would have been beautiful regardless with your mother and father's good looks :) A few things to remember while growing up in what seems like a very harsh world...listen to that mother and father of yours, they have your best interest at heart, even if it may not always seem that way. When making friends, find ones who encourage you and love you for who you are. Don't conform to anyone else's standards, but the Lords. It is okay to be an individual, remember that. Be sweet to those brothers of yours, they are protective of you because they love you...don't ever forget that. When given an opportunity, seize it! You can accomplish anything you want to. There's one more thing...guard that precious heart of yours. It is a sacred thing and should be handled with the utmost love and care.

Charm is deceptive, and beauty is fleeting; but a woman who fears the LORD is to be praised. -Proverbs 31:30

I can't wait to meet you! Love you already!

Auntie Anna Kathryn :)

shoulder pads.

guess i will make this short and sweet. it's been a rather hectic day....and tomorrow is a certain fella's birthday, who just so happens to live downstairs...and he's pretty much the funniest human being on the planet.

happy birthday richie ricardo :) you make the world a happier place

my niece is going to be born on saturday...Claire Rosalie Cash. beautiful name right? and she pretty much has the most gorgeous parents in the world, so she's bound to be a knockout.

fact. my sisters are beautiful :)

i have a new found hatred for hot glue guns. whoever thought of making them get boiling lava hot was an insane and twisted individual...i just burnt the crap out of 3 of my fingers...in fact, i can't even type with them...and they're turning white.

lovely.

"Test me in this ... and see if I will not pour out so much blessing that you will not have enough room for it" -Malachi 2:9

8 count.

so so so much to tell...

where to start.

how about this sudden craving i had tonight for a vanilla ice cream cone and orange juice? what?

or the fact that i met some really fantastic people that i cannot wait to know better! so...i haven't been in boston since i quit my job...i guess that was last monday. and today i decided to go into boston and go lindy hopping...which made absolutely no sense, considering i'm jobless currently and shouldn't be spending money, but i felt an urge to go.

so i went.

turns out these people i met are all Christians....wow. if this wasn't a God thing, i don't know what was.

so we all went to MIT for their swing dancing thing after our class got out..and they gave me a ride there. it was by far the most fun i've had since i've been here...dancing is definitely my sanity.

they gave me a ride back to the train station and everything...they also have several connections and want me to come to church with them this weekend.

oh and the train conductor that i made friends with didn't charge me for the ride back home...what???

talk about the best night ever.

and there was crazy traffic because of the red sox game getting out, so we just blasted some hillsong and worshiped all the way to the train station.

it was absolutely incredible.

thank you God...i needed tonight.

the ONLY thing that would have made this day perfection was if popeyes was open....stupid red sox game. who closes popeyes because of baseball?? i wanna call em and give em a piece of my mind!

you can't put baby in a corner.

i think spring is here to stay...cross your fingers.

so...on my morning run, i was jammin out with my bedazzled skull headphones and ipod, listening to some bob dylan. i'd say...about mile 2 into the run, it starts POURING.

okay...maybe i'm being a little dramatic, but it was raining nonetheless. anywho...i had to stuff my ipod down my shirt and sprint like a hunchback all the way home.

i'm sure that was an interesting sight to see..

the show is starting to come together. we had rehearsal tonight. i'm trying to figure out how to age 4 women 20 years in a matter of 2 minutes...ha, ridiculous right? opening weekend is only 9 short days away...and there's still lots and lots of work to be done.

okay. so this is when i wish i had a vehicle...cape cod (aka: beautiful beaches) is only 30 min. away. montreal (aka: little europe)is only 6 hours away. providence is only 45 min. away. and nyc is only a couple hours away.

so basically...someone needs to road trip up here to see me and then we can road trip to all the fabulous places around here.

k deal.


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someone said this to me the other day and i about laughed until i cried...

"you are like being in the eye of a hurricane."

i don't know why this was so funny to me...but i feel like this pretty much sums up myself currently.

fatte a mano.

ahhhhhhhhh....

so yet again i got another KILLER pair of shoes today. this shoe thing is getting out of hand...but they are vintage handmade italian leather shoes, that i just found out were originally $800 or more...and i got them for $2.98!!!! (they were probably worn maybe once..)

thrift stores love me. what can i say..

who knew that buying yogurt was so complicated...i've successfully had 3 failed attempts at buying the kind of yogurt i like. too many choices..

i promise i don't spend all of my time in thrift stores...just in case you're wondering.

i don't know what it is lately but i wake up and the first thing i want to do every day, before i even brush my teeth is run...i like to just run till i get lost most of the time...which doesn't take long haha

sleep hasn't been my specialty lately..

stunna.

i just like that word..haha

this blog thing is becoming part of my daily routine...might be dangerous.

well. on the bright side...at least i get all my useless thoughts out there.

it's funny how spending time with someone elses family can make you miss yours so much. my oldest nephew got baptised today :)

wish i could have been there...

i still had a pretty great Easter. went to this catholic mass (the first one i have ever been to). it was different from anything i've experienced...very structured, eloquent. it was a beautiful sermon as well. not exactly my style...but i still enjoyed the fellowship.

i needed it.

i have finally gotten to enjoy myself for more than a second since i've been here...it's nice having time to regroup and figure out my next move.

need to get my passport asap...along with you know, getting my cosmetology license that i spent 1500 hours of my life in school for. ugh.

i wish i didn't procrastinate so much...definitely a character default.

oh yeah...Happy Easter :)

miny cadbury eggs.

warm weather...amazing.

i have such fond memories of easter. tomorrow will be the first easter i haven't spent with the family...and i have 3 neices or nephews on the way, so i'd love to see my sisters prego selves :) instead i'm spending it with a friend's family, but that should be fun.

i remember as a kid my mom would start picking out fabric in the fall to make me and all my sisters easter dresses. (of course they were all matching with big puffy sleeves and bows to match of course haha) she even made us these awesome easter baskets that we used every year for the annual easter egg hunt at pinnacle country club. this also consisted of petting the rabbits, taking pictures with the giant scary rabbit suit man, and brunch.

ahh...memories.

i definitely burned my face with the curling iron the other day and i still have red mark :( ugh.

got these wicked shoes today...ahhh. they were $.99 too! mint condition. i'm telling you...salvation army is where it's at.

i won't wait forever
i won't waste a minute
figure it out
i have a future
i have purpose

-me.

i think i might start writing more poetry again. i used to love writing when i was younger..i miss it. just free verse though...i can't handle rules.

feng shui.

well...i don't know about you, whoever you may be...but i didn't know what feng shui really meant until this evening. i knew it had something to do with energy, but that's about it.

you know those people you meet that just have that captivating presence about them? the kind of presence that makes you want nothing more than just to be around them all the time...those people make me so happy :)

i love people.

so yes...feng shui. feng...means "wind." shui means "earth." basically, using the 5 elements...wood, water, fire, earth, and metal, you can create harmony around you. and that means pretty much anything. i don't know if i necessarily believe it works haha, but it's still interesting nonetheless.

according to feng shui...i'm a horse, meaning that i'm constantly on the move..travel a lot, energetic, likes space, loyal to friends, sometimes has trouble sustaining relationships because of constantly being on the move (ha), has a need for independence and freedom, and a scintillating presence.

weird. some of those are dead on.

had an awesome night tonight. i love hanging out with older people. they are so wise and have so much to say...but about things that actually matter, not trivial things that you could care less about.

cream soda...mmm

craving salty air.

well...i almost got through the day without being april foolsed (if that's even a word)

never fails...this day always gets me. i'm way too gullible sometimes.

i remember last year this guy i went to cosmetology school with texted me and told me our school had burnt down and that everyone was meeting next door at best buy. i even called my family flipping out about it...they panicked, turned on the news...it was definitely an ordeal.

i saw "remember me" today. wow...new respect for robert pattinson. he's so passionate and diverse. i loved his role...and the movie wasn't anything like i expected.

still adjusting to this hair...it's nice not having to use as much shampoo though. haha :)

i went to this amazing woman's house today...remember that hariet the spy movie? i don't really remember anything about the movie, except that hariet went to this woman's house and her garden was so magical and fun, just clutter of amazing things everywhere. that was COMPLETELY what this woman's house was like. not only that...but you walk inside her house and there was this enchanting white room in a pentagon shape..windows on every wall, white drapes on every window, cute lounging chairs, amazing lanterns hanging at all different levels, the windows were all open, birds chirping, sun out (FINALLY), and just great conversation. this woman was so fascinating.

it's refreshing to meet people who live life and don't waste a minute of it.