majesty.

So these past few weeks have been rather revealing...and I thought they might be encouraging to others as well. So here goes nothing..

Majesty Majesty
Your beauty ASTOUNDS me
Your faithfulness is unending
Your mercies are new every single day
Thank you.

-excerpt from a journal entry from a couple days ago

He poured water into a bowl and began to wash the followers feet, drying them with the towel that was wrapped around him. -John 13:5

It is truly amazing to me how MANY different ways God shows his love for us throughout scripture/my own life. It can even be as simple as a smile from a stranger. God calls us to DESIRE his heart to love others just like he has loved me and you. This means...we love all, serve Him, and there shouldn't be any hesitation whatsoever with this.

A generous man will prosper; he who refreshes others will himself be refreshed.-Proverbs 11:25

something else God has laid on my heart lately...

For we do not have a high priest who is unable to sympathize with our weaknesses, but we have one who has been tempted in every way, just as we are--yet was without sin. -Hebrews 4:7

God is beautiful and SINLESS. He shared every single trial we have faced when he was a man on earth (take a moment just to digest that). He knows our every thought, our hearts, and far beyond what we can see in this moment.

I am reminded daily of how small and insignificant my life is how how big and marvelous He is. It just blows me away that despite all my sin and faults, he still loves me just as much as he did yesterday, and the day before that.

"Do not think that love, in order to be genuine, has to be extraordinary. What we need to do is love without getting tired." -Mother Theresa

getting older.

birthdays are a strange occurrence. according to one day, you are one number higher than the number you were the day before. also...i never feel older. it's just a day when people are super nice to you and people that you haven't talked to since...who knows when tell you happy birthday...haha.

like for instance...my roommates. they are amazing. last night at exactly midnight...they had pink and white streamers and balloons everyyywhere when i walked in the door. :)

then today they made me waffles for breakfast...then we got pedicures, CHICK FIL AAAAAAA, and shot cakes (cupcakes filled with ice cream. incred.)

lara and suzy: if you are reading this...i love you so much and thank you for making my first birthday in massachusetts so special! i am so blessed to have you in my life!

now i'm in the citttay visiting my one and only :) and he has a whole evening planned for the two of us...can't wait! except the whole surprise factor...bah.

in the past 2 days, i have broken a lampshade, a glass, cut my finger, burnt my knuckle, tripped going up the stairs and face planted it...oh and i fell over on this guy on the subway today.

yep...grace is not my middle name.

i have a feeling these next couple months are going to be insane.

Let the morning bring me word of your unfailing love, for I have put my trust in you. Show me the way I should go, for to you I lift up my soul. -Psalm 143:8

i'm the new chicken clucking open hearts.

^^in case you are wondering about that title, it's lyrics to this song i cannot get out of my head. i love this song. the weepies are fabulous.

again...so much has changed in my life.

Jesus...you never fail to amaze me.

gahhh i am so undeserving of all the many blessings he has put in my life. literally i would never finish this blog post if i were to put in here everything he is doing in my life right now...

I love those who love me, and those who seek me find me. - Proverbs 8:17

Praise be to you, O LORD;
teach me your decrees. -Psalm 119:12

God is exalted in his power.
Who is a teacher like him? -Job 36:22

For I know the plans I have for you,' declares the LORD, 'plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.
-Jeremiah 29:10-12

God has brought me laughter, and everyone who hears about this will laugh with me.
-Genesis 21:6 << i love his sense of humor :)

i really feel so content and fulfilled with God at this place i'm in my life currently. now i just need to give back the love and joy i feel to others.

what does this look like in my life? well...i am still figuring out the fine print. i definitely feel like he is using me in my day to day life, but i have always had a strong desire to work with youth in some form or fashion...maybe because i feel like i'm still a kid myself, and i want to stay this way forever. :]

new hampshire this weekend, new york next weekend...can't wait! ahhhhh

nautical gifts.

childrens museum in boston...phenomenal. i especially enjoyed braiding the balding mannequin's hair in the fake salon...they were probably balding because kids like ripping out hair for some reason. yes. i have experienced this firsthand.

so how can i catch up all my blog followers on my life? ahhh...so much has changed since i last blogged.

change is good though...most of the time anyways.

God is doing a lot in my heart these days. i am ready to be molded however he wants me...i just needed to continue guarding it.

oh yeah...i moved! i now live 20 min. north of the city, which is much closer to my job, church, etc...which is super nice, and i live with 2 pretty awesome gals and the sweetest dogs on the planet. i was sad to say goodbye to my old roomies though. i will definitely miss them. we had some great times on south main street.

i've gotten to go to the beach a lot lately, which has been freaking incredible. if i could be there every day, i would. speaking of...i had the most amazing 4th of july everrr this year. i went kayaking into the ocean with the most beautiful watermelon and marigold sunset and fireworks all around, followed by grilling out, and being serenaded by a guitar on the beach all night long. :]

life is great.

God is great. i love my church. i'm really starting to feel at home here.

tom tom.

GPS....it will be the death of me one day. i just know it.

tom tom and i are not friends. i miss kim...i can't believe i'm saying this. she was my magellan GPS and she was much more reliable...even though i wanted to throw her in a cow patty several times. we had a love-hate relationship.

the other day i somehow remembered that person that got trampled on black friday a couple years ago...what a way to die...death of shopping. geeze.

i've been slacking on this blog thing. in fact...i haven't felt all that motivated lately. maybe it's because the only time i'm ever on the computer is when i'm at my house...which is hardly ever now. and when i'm here, i want to sleep...just like i do now.

and i will sleep...in a sec..

there was a lot i wanted to say and now my mind is drawing a blank. ugh.

tomorrow i'm going to explore more of new england, visiting ME and NH. i am ridiculously excited...yay road trips.

and it's my favorite day of the week...yes...you know what this means. i will be swing dancing my heart out :)

frustration.

so.

for those of you who don't know...i'm just about the most indecisive girl you'll ever meet. decisions are not my forte. in fact...i try to avoid them. like it's so bad that at restaurants that i have to just force myself pick something, unless i've already been there and know what's good.

so i'm listening to jonas brothers right now....and i don't hate it. haha...embarassing.

i feel like i'm at this crazy point in my life where i need to make some decisions fairly soon, otherwise...i'll be at this place of uncertainty forever. and as much fun as that is...ha not worth it.

i just don't know what to do. i love Boston...don't get me wrong. i do. and i have finally found a church in which i feel like i belong to, which i've never felt this way in my life! i've also re-discovered my love for swing dancing, which has been truly wonderful. i cannot tell you how happy it makes me. plus...there's nothing like walking around Boston when the weather is nice, people are out and about, things going on left and right...

the inspiration is endless.

the down side is that i'm not doing what i moved up here to do...which is further excel my career as a hair stylist. obviously the first salon i got a job at was not right for me, so i'm working at a restaurant now...which is fine, it's paying the bills. the benefits are nice too....but it's not a career and not what i will be doing for the rest of my life. that's for sure.

but AR will always be my home...i know that i can always come back to it if i want to. my heart is still there, that's for sure.

i know that if i knew the world was ending tomorrow...the first thing i'd be doing was hitchin a ride back to AR. but what does this mean?? i still want to accomplish so much here...and i feel like i have, but at the same time...i feel as though i need to be 100% committed to making it here..and i'm not anymore. maybe just because i'm afraid to fail? i don't know...ugh.

wow.

this is the first time i've gotten it all out in print. but i definitely need some prayers to further decide my next move.

time to hit the book...

52 blogs. geeze.

i can't believe you people aren't sick of me yet haha..

days off are definitely gifts from God. i am convinced of this.

went swing dancing on friday night! this was the first time i've gotten to go in almost a month now...i've missed it so much. turns out that 70 year old men OWN swing dancing. this little old man named john with thick rimmed black glasses asked me to dance (i'm thinking to myself..."i'll go easy on him"). turns out he showed up everyone on that dance floor!! haha it was amazing.

then the really crazy part was the fact that i saw john the next day running around the middle of the city (mind you...the place we swing danced at was like 20 min outside of the city) and HE RECOGNIZED ME!! this is the first time i've ever had a second encounter with anyone at swing dancing...outside of the dance hall of course. it pretty much made my day...he even remembered my name! lol and all these young people around were of course looking at me like i was a crazy person for knowing this guy.

who cares. it was amazing.

going for a run in the middle of a hot summer day is a terrible idea.

french people are very cool. emphasis on the word cool...they have this kind of slinky presence about them, everything is chill, they have this kind of effortless style...and idunno, they are just interesting people to be around.

i need to be productive today...so off i go.

i love summertime in Boston. :)