it's a new year. 2011...you came way too quickly.
my first blog post this year..watch out!
i haven't made any new years resolutions really...because i always find i break them instantly. so i guess you could said i've made a new years resolution to not have any new years resolutions...
however, i have set a few mental goals...
1. read more (just in general)
2. begin learning how to speak french (which was my new years resolution last year..ha!)
3. eat more veggies
4. dance a heck of a lot more
5. finish this the journal i started last month sometime this year
6. visit the ocean more
7. build a website and make business cards
8. love more
9. pray more intentionally and continually
10. make somewhat of a routine in my day to day schedule (i hate routines, but it might be beneficial...we shall see)
i find myself missing my family a lot these days. it would be so great to spend the day thrift shopping with my mom and getting o'charlies. :) i miss her and my sisters so much...and of course my precious nephews and niece.
i need to start planning a trip home to visit...
finding a balance in life is rather hard these days for me. back home..it seemed to be much easier. i feel like it's one extreme or the other for me lately. i need some equilibrium.
these next couple of months are going to be rather life altering...but then again, when is life not altering? i am not guaranteed an outcome, however, the Lord is faithful. this i know to be true.
in other news...there is at least 3 ft of snow outside of my window...and it is growing by the day. i am ready for sunshine and sandy beaches. come back summerrrrr, you are missed in new england.
i had a ridiculous craving for popeyes chicken today that wasn't fulfilled...sadness.
Wednesday, January 5, 2011
Thursday, December 9, 2010
cambiamento.
crying: the process of shedding tears (usually accompanied by sobs or other inarticulate sounds)
Crying is a rather strange thing when you think about it...it's almost uncontrollable. You can cry tears of joy, tears of pain, or tears can fall from your face when you stare at a bright computer screen too long...(which is the kind i am experiencing right now)
In the past few weeks...I have shed all 3 kinds of tears. (for me...that is quite an accomplishment, I don't tend to cry very often) I guess you could say I have been in touch with my emotions these days.
Today I reflected on who I was before I moved to Boston...and just how much God has taught me upon leaving Arkansas and beginning my endeavors in New England. It's kind of overwhelming how God creeps into your life. I was this vulnerable broken girl...who was so stubborn and selfish. I thought I had it all figured out...I was going to move to Boston and kill it! (can you say prideful?) I was going to be this fabulous hair stylist, when in reality, God had another agenda for me...who knew that he could use swing dancing to introduce me to people who led worship for a God-centered church? I sure didn't.
What an impact this church has made on my life...I have NEVER felt more loved by a church (a body of people who love each other and serve Christ). I can honestly say that this church has a genuine heart for the Lord..they truly love God and love people, because He first loved us.
I am tearing up just thinking about how much God has done in my life in the past couple years...it is truly wonderful to think about, and I know this is only the beginning.
It's funny how life changes so unexpectedly. It comes out of no where.
As for man, his days are like grass; he flourishes like a flower of the field; for the wind passes over it, and it is gone, and its place knows it no more.
Psalm 103:15-16
My life may be short, but I want it spent honoring Him.
Search me, God, and know my heart; test me and know my anxious thoughts. See if there is any offensive way in me, and lead me in the way everlasting.
Psalm 139:23-24
Crying is a rather strange thing when you think about it...it's almost uncontrollable. You can cry tears of joy, tears of pain, or tears can fall from your face when you stare at a bright computer screen too long...(which is the kind i am experiencing right now)
In the past few weeks...I have shed all 3 kinds of tears. (for me...that is quite an accomplishment, I don't tend to cry very often) I guess you could say I have been in touch with my emotions these days.
Today I reflected on who I was before I moved to Boston...and just how much God has taught me upon leaving Arkansas and beginning my endeavors in New England. It's kind of overwhelming how God creeps into your life. I was this vulnerable broken girl...who was so stubborn and selfish. I thought I had it all figured out...I was going to move to Boston and kill it! (can you say prideful?) I was going to be this fabulous hair stylist, when in reality, God had another agenda for me...who knew that he could use swing dancing to introduce me to people who led worship for a God-centered church? I sure didn't.
What an impact this church has made on my life...I have NEVER felt more loved by a church (a body of people who love each other and serve Christ). I can honestly say that this church has a genuine heart for the Lord..they truly love God and love people, because He first loved us.
I am tearing up just thinking about how much God has done in my life in the past couple years...it is truly wonderful to think about, and I know this is only the beginning.
It's funny how life changes so unexpectedly. It comes out of no where.
As for man, his days are like grass; he flourishes like a flower of the field; for the wind passes over it, and it is gone, and its place knows it no more.
Psalm 103:15-16
My life may be short, but I want it spent honoring Him.
Search me, God, and know my heart; test me and know my anxious thoughts. See if there is any offensive way in me, and lead me in the way everlasting.
Psalm 139:23-24
Thursday, December 2, 2010
Thursday, October 7, 2010
perspective.
pretty sure Boston in the season of autumn (right now) is the most perfect time of year...if only it didn't fly by so quickly.
i am already cold....it's gonna be a rough winter for me. i can feel it already.
my mom used to read to me Psalm 23 every night before i went to bed growing up...even after i memorized it forwards and backwards haha. still...it never gets old...it's like comfort food. :)
The Lord is my shepherd I shall not want. He makes me lie down in green pastures, He leads me beside the still waters, He restores my soul. He guides me in the paths of righteousness for His name sake. Yea though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil for thou art with me. Thy rod and thy staff shall comfort me. Thou preparest a table before me in the presence of my enemies: thou anointest my head with oil; my cup runneth over. Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life: and I will dwell in the house of the LORD forever.
i feel like i've been around the world and back...
in the past month...i have taken a road trip from Boston, MA to Conway, AR in a vehicle that broke down once in Cleveland, OH...then while i was driving (without a license, or so i thought) the vehicle started jolting back and forth till it hit 40 mph (the minimal speed limit on the interstate)...where i then proceeded to sweat and pray a lot. we made it there finally...after a pit stop in TN and MS for a couple days. (p.s. found my license once i got to Conway) from there...my sister and friend picked me up, then had a 3 hr drive home...spent some time in NWA with the fam, then had a 6 hour flight back to NYC to visit the man for a couple days :), then took a 4 hour bus ride back to Boston...then a 20 min subway ride and a transfer to a 20 min bus ride home. basically i have taken every form of transportation in the past few weeks...minus a few uncommon ones...submarine, hovercraft, teleportation...you get the idea.
it's been awesome to just slow down the past week or so and unwind spending genuine time with God.
He never fails to reveal...and His timing is always perfect.
God will always give what is right to His people who cry to him night and day, and He will not be slow to answer them.
Luke 18:7
this is such a cool verse for many reasons...the Lord is faithful. He knows our every need and He will provide. so many times in my life when i have taken life into my own hands being hasty, i have crashed and burned...but when He is in control, He has my best in mind and He answers every prayer. patience is the key.
"the difference between a calling from God and a good idea is that a calling will stick"
i am already cold....it's gonna be a rough winter for me. i can feel it already.
my mom used to read to me Psalm 23 every night before i went to bed growing up...even after i memorized it forwards and backwards haha. still...it never gets old...it's like comfort food. :)
The Lord is my shepherd I shall not want. He makes me lie down in green pastures, He leads me beside the still waters, He restores my soul. He guides me in the paths of righteousness for His name sake. Yea though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil for thou art with me. Thy rod and thy staff shall comfort me. Thou preparest a table before me in the presence of my enemies: thou anointest my head with oil; my cup runneth over. Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life: and I will dwell in the house of the LORD forever.
i feel like i've been around the world and back...
in the past month...i have taken a road trip from Boston, MA to Conway, AR in a vehicle that broke down once in Cleveland, OH...then while i was driving (without a license, or so i thought) the vehicle started jolting back and forth till it hit 40 mph (the minimal speed limit on the interstate)...where i then proceeded to sweat and pray a lot. we made it there finally...after a pit stop in TN and MS for a couple days. (p.s. found my license once i got to Conway) from there...my sister and friend picked me up, then had a 3 hr drive home...spent some time in NWA with the fam, then had a 6 hour flight back to NYC to visit the man for a couple days :), then took a 4 hour bus ride back to Boston...then a 20 min subway ride and a transfer to a 20 min bus ride home. basically i have taken every form of transportation in the past few weeks...minus a few uncommon ones...submarine, hovercraft, teleportation...you get the idea.
it's been awesome to just slow down the past week or so and unwind spending genuine time with God.
He never fails to reveal...and His timing is always perfect.
God will always give what is right to His people who cry to him night and day, and He will not be slow to answer them.
Luke 18:7
this is such a cool verse for many reasons...the Lord is faithful. He knows our every need and He will provide. so many times in my life when i have taken life into my own hands being hasty, i have crashed and burned...but when He is in control, He has my best in mind and He answers every prayer. patience is the key.
"the difference between a calling from God and a good idea is that a calling will stick"
Monday, September 27, 2010
Tuesday, September 14, 2010
majesty.
So these past few weeks have been rather revealing...and I thought they might be encouraging to others as well. So here goes nothing..
Majesty Majesty
Your beauty ASTOUNDS me
Your faithfulness is unending
Your mercies are new every single day
Thank you.
-excerpt from a journal entry from a couple days ago
He poured water into a bowl and began to wash the followers feet, drying them with the towel that was wrapped around him. -John 13:5
It is truly amazing to me how MANY different ways God shows his love for us throughout scripture/my own life. It can even be as simple as a smile from a stranger. God calls us to DESIRE his heart to love others just like he has loved me and you. This means...we love all, serve Him, and there shouldn't be any hesitation whatsoever with this.
A generous man will prosper; he who refreshes others will himself be refreshed.-Proverbs 11:25
something else God has laid on my heart lately...
For we do not have a high priest who is unable to sympathize with our weaknesses, but we have one who has been tempted in every way, just as we are--yet was without sin. -Hebrews 4:7
God is beautiful and SINLESS. He shared every single trial we have faced when he was a man on earth (take a moment just to digest that). He knows our every thought, our hearts, and far beyond what we can see in this moment.
I am reminded daily of how small and insignificant my life is how how big and marvelous He is. It just blows me away that despite all my sin and faults, he still loves me just as much as he did yesterday, and the day before that.
"Do not think that love, in order to be genuine, has to be extraordinary. What we need to do is love without getting tired." -Mother Theresa
Majesty Majesty
Your beauty ASTOUNDS me
Your faithfulness is unending
Your mercies are new every single day
Thank you.
-excerpt from a journal entry from a couple days ago
He poured water into a bowl and began to wash the followers feet, drying them with the towel that was wrapped around him. -John 13:5
It is truly amazing to me how MANY different ways God shows his love for us throughout scripture/my own life. It can even be as simple as a smile from a stranger. God calls us to DESIRE his heart to love others just like he has loved me and you. This means...we love all, serve Him, and there shouldn't be any hesitation whatsoever with this.
A generous man will prosper; he who refreshes others will himself be refreshed.-Proverbs 11:25
something else God has laid on my heart lately...
For we do not have a high priest who is unable to sympathize with our weaknesses, but we have one who has been tempted in every way, just as we are--yet was without sin. -Hebrews 4:7
God is beautiful and SINLESS. He shared every single trial we have faced when he was a man on earth (take a moment just to digest that). He knows our every thought, our hearts, and far beyond what we can see in this moment.
I am reminded daily of how small and insignificant my life is how how big and marvelous He is. It just blows me away that despite all my sin and faults, he still loves me just as much as he did yesterday, and the day before that.
"Do not think that love, in order to be genuine, has to be extraordinary. What we need to do is love without getting tired." -Mother Theresa
Tuesday, August 17, 2010
getting older.
birthdays are a strange occurrence. according to one day, you are one number higher than the number you were the day before. also...i never feel older. it's just a day when people are super nice to you and people that you haven't talked to since...who knows when tell you happy birthday...haha.
like for instance...my roommates. they are amazing. last night at exactly midnight...they had pink and white streamers and balloons everyyywhere when i walked in the door. :)
then today they made me waffles for breakfast...then we got pedicures, CHICK FIL AAAAAAA, and shot cakes (cupcakes filled with ice cream. incred.)
lara and suzy: if you are reading this...i love you so much and thank you for making my first birthday in massachusetts so special! i am so blessed to have you in my life!
now i'm in the citttay visiting my one and only :) and he has a whole evening planned for the two of us...can't wait! except the whole surprise factor...bah.
in the past 2 days, i have broken a lampshade, a glass, cut my finger, burnt my knuckle, tripped going up the stairs and face planted it...oh and i fell over on this guy on the subway today.
yep...grace is not my middle name.
i have a feeling these next couple months are going to be insane.
Let the morning bring me word of your unfailing love, for I have put my trust in you. Show me the way I should go, for to you I lift up my soul. -Psalm 143:8
like for instance...my roommates. they are amazing. last night at exactly midnight...they had pink and white streamers and balloons everyyywhere when i walked in the door. :)
then today they made me waffles for breakfast...then we got pedicures, CHICK FIL AAAAAAA, and shot cakes (cupcakes filled with ice cream. incred.)
lara and suzy: if you are reading this...i love you so much and thank you for making my first birthday in massachusetts so special! i am so blessed to have you in my life!
now i'm in the citttay visiting my one and only :) and he has a whole evening planned for the two of us...can't wait! except the whole surprise factor...bah.
in the past 2 days, i have broken a lampshade, a glass, cut my finger, burnt my knuckle, tripped going up the stairs and face planted it...oh and i fell over on this guy on the subway today.
yep...grace is not my middle name.
i have a feeling these next couple months are going to be insane.
Let the morning bring me word of your unfailing love, for I have put my trust in you. Show me the way I should go, for to you I lift up my soul. -Psalm 143:8
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